The Four Hearts Project is for women who are also struggling with any type of grief or loss to find a community, not struggle alone, feel hope, and find the courage to take one brave step forward. The Four Hearts Project is a place where women can find honesty, a safe place to grieve and relate to other women about the good, the bad, and the ugly. It is a community of people to find peace, joy, and even some laughter on their own journey whatever it looks like.
The Four Hearts Project is a place for husbands, mothers, fathers, siblings, grandparents, or friends learn how to support someone who is experiencing pregnancy loss or any type of grief. With my new labels of secondary infertility, tubal infertility, and recurrent pregnancy loss I am still on my journey of grieving, and figuring out what is next. I want to share my journey with others. So often we just see “the rainbows,” but not the journey through the storm. I often feel like I am right in the middle of a hurricane! Some days are still super hard, and some days are better. I am finding my new purpose and I hope I can lift others on their way.
“If we have no peace it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other.” -Mother Theresa
The Four Heart's Project Story
I felt called to have a space where I can share my story so others won't feel so alone and will be able to find some hope.
After having 1 miscarriage in between my kids, that had life-threatening complications including hemorrhaging, spending a week in the hospital, and 2 units of blood transfused. Then 3 more pregnancy losses in a row, 2 being ectopic and 1 fallopian tube being removed I have learned a lot. I continue to learn and am slowly healing emotionally.
While struggling in the trenches of this grief I have searched high and low for a safe space for healing online. I have wanted to find other women to relate to who were experiencing something similar in their motherhood, so I created the Four Hearts Project. Four hearts for my four babies that I've lost.
Here you can follow my journey, be strengthened, encouraged, find light in the darkness, and more. I have a lot more planned for the days, weeks, and months to come.
Hi I'm Megan...
If I could go back and tell my 23-year-old self-anything it would be, “Don’t grip so tightly to your plans. It’s ok if things don’t work out how you thought. Have faith, be still. God will never let you down. Through pain and brokenness, you will feel stronger and more love.”
I have 2 smart, hilarious, and beautiful kids; my son is 9 and my daughter is 5, and 4 angel babies. I've been married 10 years. I am a textbook type-A personality. I am "recovering perfectionist.” I love lists and planning. I love podcasts and reading inspiring self-help books(Brené Brown & I are meant to be BFFs). I’m a collaborator for a blog and I love writing. I’m addicted to starbursts, and peppermint Hersey’s kisses. I dream of having a vacation house in Destin, Florida. I love girls nights. We need each other as women to survive and support each other!
I'm trying everyday to show up and be present in my life. I love to utilize affirmations to ground myself and focus on my mental health. I struggle with PTSD, depression, and anxiety. Affirmations and yoga have been so helpful in my recovery.
This infertility and pregnancy loss journey is really hard, but I am slowly finding more hope, peace, and purpose again. I know you will too.