In the past two years, I have experienced my second miscarriage, and have survived 2 ectopic or tubal pregnancies, with my last tubal pregnancy this past January. I have had 4 pregnancy losses altogether. It has been devastating to say and has left me changed. I have become well acquainted with grief, loss, depression, and PTSD. I have also become stronger, more empathetic, and grown my relationship with God and my Savior. While struggling in the trenches of this grief I have searched high and low for a safe space for healing online. I have wanted to find other women to relate to who were experiencing something similar in their motherhood, so I created the Four Hearts Project.
The Four Hearts Project is for women who are also struggling with any type of grief or loss to find a community, not struggle alone, feel hope, and find the courage to take one brave step forward. The Four Hearts Project will be a place where women can find honesty, a safe place to grieve and relate to other women about the good, the bad, and the ugly. It will be a community of people to find peace, joy, and even some laughter on their own journey whatever it looks like.
The Four Hearts Project is a place for husbands, mothers, fathers, siblings, grandparents, or friends learn how to support someone who is experiencing pregnancy loss or any type of grief. With my new labels of secondary infertility, tubal infertility, and recurrent pregnancy loss I am still on my journey of grieving, and figuring out what is next. I want to share my journey with others. So often we just see “the rainbows,” but not the journey through the storm. I often feel like I am right in the middle of a hurricane! Some days are still super hard, and some days are better. I am finding my new purpose and I hope I can lift others on their way.
“If we have no peace it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other.” -Mother Theresa
Here you can follow my journey, be strengthened, encouraged, find light in the darkness, and more. I have a lot more planned for the days, weeks, and months to come.