My Experience With Grief

I remember seeing this picture and thinking “YES! That is me. That is what my grief feels like!” I’m all over the place!

Most days I really am ok and happy. I get out of bed and I get after my morning, but everything feels heavy and hard today. I can feel my anxiety tight in my chest while my mind races. I think I could probably either scream or burst into tears at any moment. I wonder if it’s Mother’s Day coming up? I both love and dread Mother’s Day.

It’s only been a few months since my last loss and 2nd ectopic pregnancy that changed everything. I’m still healing and today is a grief day, and I’m reminding myself that’s ok.

I was struggling with what to share today but nothing was coming. There is just the grief. I’m sad, anxious, and tired. I had plans for what this Mother’s Day would look like. I would be in my third trimester. Now those plans are different, which is ok. Today is hard.

I’m trying to be super transparent and honest to help others know it’s ok to have days like this. Grief comes in waves. Sometimes it comes out of nowhere when you least expect it. Thankfully there is a tomorrow. Tomorrow has lots of opportunities to be better.

So if you’re having a hard grief day be kind to yourself! I’m sending you all the love! ♥️ Share below how you get through the hard days of infertility, pregnancy losses, and grief...Hopefully, we can all help each other.