Happy Mother’s Day to all of you! Happy Mother’s day if you are a mom in heart and still yearning to have a sweet baby in your arms. Happy Mother’s day to those who like me have both heavenly and earthly angels. Happy Mother’s day to all the moms who are doing their very best.
As women, we have divine power to nurture and love all of those around us. We are able to love unconditionally and lift others. A woman’s love reminds us of how God unconditionally loves us.
To everyone you may nurture, your own children or children around you, you are important. You are significant. You are divine. You are enough, what you do and who you are matters.
It is ok to have all of the different feelings today. Be kind to yourself. I know how aware God is of each of us and knows our struggles. Have hope that good will come and you are so loved.
Love and Loss on Mother's Day
I have so many emotions surrounding Mother’s Day this year. I have had so many wonderful mothers in my life who have made a big impact on my life. My own mom especially is beyond amazing and I love her so much.
I am also so beyond grateful for my 2 beautiful children. They are my heart outside my body. I am so proud of them and love them so much. I am grateful I get to snuggle them and sing them to sleep every night. Their little hands in mine help heal my heart.
I am also aching this year. I am feeling my losses hard. I am missing my babies I never met, and the baby I would have had in just a few months. I am feeling the loss of unmet expectations and failed dreams. I am feeling angry that my body couldn’t do what it was meant to do. I am feeling anxious because I am not sure what is going to come next. Do we have more babies? Do we do IVF? I don’t know if I can mentally handle another ectopic pregnancy or miscarriage.
To the mom that is meticulously planning hormone injections, pills, doctor’s visits, and tracking your cycle I see you. I see your broken heart every time you have to drive by that “expecting mom” parking spot. I know what it feels like to get another baby shower announcement and be excited for them and sad for yourself all at the same time.
To the mom who is constantly thinking of the baby that you carried only for a few weeks and never met I see you. I see you trying to picture your baby’s sweet face and tiny features in your mind. I see you dreaming of what “could have been.”
To the mom who has small children and is beyond tired, I see you. I see you questioning if the work you are doing to take care of those small kiddos is enough. I know grocery trips are more like marathons, sleeping is non-existent, and every surface is mysteriously sticky.
To all of you, I stress that you are enough. You are doing so much better than you think you are. You’re amazing and strong. You are beautiful. Be kind to yourself and let others around you love on you!
What kind of feelings is Mother’s Day bringing up for you this year?