I’m trying hard to get out of this emotional rut I’ve been in. Grief definitely comes in waves... I can be good for a long time. Great even. Then out of no where. Boom. I’m swallowed whole by grief and anxiety. Has anyone else felt like that?
Sleeping has been a struggle recently and when my sleep is bad everything else is a million times harder. Has anyone else had a problem sleeping after pregnancy loss or infertility?
My natural instinct, while I’m grieving, is to retreat. I become a homebody and usually cry a lot. It’s not pretty. 🤦🏼♀️
I’m trying to take some really amazing advice from my girl @brenebrown. To get out of this rut I’m putting myself out there into things that are uncomfortable. For example...Talking openly about my story and losses. Writing. Growing my business to save for IVF. Trying new things. Learning new skills.
I am also participating in the Walk of Hope here in Colorado this weekend. I am so excited and also anxious to participate. I haven’t ever been apart of an event like this before. I’m excited to come together as an infertility community and have a fun morning with my family.
So here is to being really, super, crazy uncomfortable so that I can learn, move through my grief, and be stronger. 💪🏻
(If you are also going to be at the Walk of Hope this Saturday look for me! My family will be there in black shirts with my heart logo on it. ♥️ Come say hi! If you would like to donate to the walk all the money goes to @resolveorg to help support, educate and empower those fighting infertility. You can donate HERE. Even a $1 is huge! Thanks so much.)
Flip the Script - National Infertility Awareness Week
This week is National Infertility Awareness Week. Because of my second ectopic pregnancy in January, it is still surreal that I am struggling with infertility, specifically secondary infertility. After having 2 healthy babies I never thought this would be my reality. I am so grateful for my kids, and I still mourn for the babies that we have lost.
1 in 8 couples are affected by infertility. Chances are that you or someone you know is struggling. So why don’t we talk about it more? Why are so many women and couples suffering alone silently? Why is there so much shame surrounding infertility? This week gives an opportunity to break down the stigma and barriers surrounding infertility.
Infertility is an emotional rollercoaster. It is full of heartbreak, shattered dreams, and lost expectations. Your sense of self-worth is shattered while anxiety, depression, grief, and loneliness set in.
“Owning our story and loving ourselves through that process is the bravest thing that we will ever do.” -Brené Brown
This week I am going to try and be vulnerable by owning my story. The last 2 years, and especially these past few months have been so difficult and dark. I have sobbed from the depths of my broken soul. But, I have also felt the power of letting light in and putting my broken pieces back together. My hope is that by sharing my story I will find more meaning and purpose in it and that we can all support each other.
I encourage you this week to share your story of infertility and read others. Support those around you who are struggling with infertility. Let’s #FlipTheScript of infertility and bring each other into the light. I will also be sharing facts about infertility, resources, brave stories from other women, and have a fun giveaway starting tomorrow. Tag your friends below that might benefit from this strong community. 💪🏻💕